Sometimes, I will have the most horrible intrusive thoughts about my relationship with Jamie. I will think, and convince myself, “how could this person ever like me? ME? Something doesn’t add up.”
I start to analyze every single bit of us being together. I think back to things I’ve said and things they’ve said to me too. I look for double meanings. I get sudden moments of insecurity and I find myself unable to stop crying.
I am constantly convincing myself that I am so unlovable.